Lights from Salem

Musings and thoughts of a traveler and armchair linguist on his journey through the ups and downs of life.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

"So This Is It. It's In the Middle of Nowhere."

Dear Constant Readers,

This last week I spent a few days at my soon-to-be new home for the next two years. In many ways, I got exactly what I wanted. When I was told a couple of weeks ago what my town was like, I was very happy and relieved. It is in northern Peru, in the region of Piura, namely. It is a small hamlet in the Andes Mountains, which is to say it’s high up, but low enough to still be moderately warm and green. In fact, it is one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen. It is a quiet, sleepy village of surely less than 500 souls.

But arriving there was a shock. The trip up there in a Combi (a little van that inspires no confidence) over the small, one-landed dirt road up the side of the mountains took around two or three hours, and that was plenty of time to ask myself around ten times just what in God’s name do I think I am doing here. Up in the isolation of Rinconada, my town, I am blessed with a few amenities: running water, electricity, and there’s a rumor of cell phone service, but since I don’t yet have a cell phone I can’t ascertain that. There is no internet, but an hour’s walk uphill to the next town where the nearest volunteer, Patrick (who is quoted in the title of this entry) lives this apparently can be had in the school.

My home has the coziness of being in a big den. It’s dark and musty, but I think will be comfortable. But shock of being in such a humble home, knowing I’ll be living in it for two years, has not yet worn off. I’m not being picky about the conditions there, but I would be lying if I said it won’t take getting used to. The latrine is merely a squat toilet surrounded by some plastic sheet walls and a curtain. It isn’t as bad as I thought such a toilet would be, especially when you really just gotta go. But I did have to chase a chicken out of it the second day there. The shower has a similar design. The water just flows over some flat rocks, so I bought some sandals to where specifically there. But I am getting used to the art of taking a cold, hasty shower.

I decided to alleviate some of my shock by drinking a Dr. Pepper that I discovered in a supermarket in the capital city Piura while sitting on my second-story bamboo porch and take in the beautiful Swiss-like scenery while reading my book I brought.

My family seems to be quiet nice, although quiet around me still. I have two younger brothers and a single host mother. The two brothers, 13 and 14 years old, both have been interested in speaking with me, although the youngest one stares at me while I eat, and I don’t know how to react to that. The older of the two brothers told me he just knows the history of Peru, so I decided to give him a brief history of World War Two, one of my favorite historical time periods.

The cat only likes me if I have food in my hand, otherwise I can’t get within an eight-foot radius of him.

The locals I’ve met have mostly been kind, although a few have been shy, which is understandable given the fact I am a man, seen as both an outsider and an authority figure, and the first American to live in the town (however, apparently there was a local girl who got married to an American some time ago).

The first night I was introduced to the community by my counterpart, the person who, hopefully, will be working with me throughout the course of my two years. I told them who I was and where I was from, and taught them how to say my name which has consistently been harder than hell for almost every Spanish-speaker I’ve run into. I also had plenty of time to feel like I have just about as much business being a technical advisor to these people as I do being a technical advisor aboard a space station. We’ve gone through the training surely enough, but I still felt very small in front of every one.

After the introduction, everyone joined in a drinking circle, a Peruvian tradition of passing a bottle and a cup from person to person. The alcohol, I think it was called cañoso or cañete or something, was mixed with milk and something else to make it sweet, and I decided I probably drank my Dr. Pepper a few hours too early.

The school director sees me basically as a much needed English and computer class teacher. I knew I would be asked to teach English. I’ve even kind of looking forward to it. But the second request took me by surprise. To the best of my knowledge the town only has one computer, anyway.

The slow place of life will take some time to get used to, but, by that very nature, time is all I’ll have. I felt guilty by just sitting on my porch and reading, but when I would get up and walk around and be stared at, I saw that most of the folk were doing something similar. When I’m not working or spending time in the community to integrate myself, I’ll need to think of something to occupy myself. Reading and writing are definites.

I knew this would be a challenge, and I will take it on, but I was surprised how much I’ve adjusted to where I’m living now, and how I felt two and a months ago I feel again after having visited site. I’m sure it will wear off as well as I fall into my notch there. I felt sad, however, at all the friendships I’ve begun to make over these past few months, and I know that now we will be spread all over the place. I take comfort in the fact that most of us are in the same boat, but it does take some reckoning.

Like many things in life, it is a mixed bag of surprises. I’m curious to see how it will turn out.

Hope all is well.

Tristan

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

After Field Based Training

Dear Constant Readers,

I know that the Peace Corps is right for me. So it’s something of a paradox perhaps that I sometimes wonder why am I here. What were my motives for coming? What do I hope to get out of it? And so forth…Some of these questions I have begun to discover answers for, but many of them still restlessly swoop around in the canopy of my mind like birds looking for a roost.

I know that I am not the only person in my very group who has asked themselves these questions, let alone the first person in the entirety of Peace Corps history. I was following my instincts in joining up, and I know that I have wanted to see South America, so that answers some of my questions. When it comes to helping people, things are harder to define. I do enjoy helping people, and I did want to get some service work in my life that has been almost completely devoid of it. The work though I think will be a shock to the system, but certainly not a bad one for me.

However, I think my best ways of helping come more in listening to people, as I love listening to what is in people’s hearts that troubles them in life. I like being able to be there for people, for being able to hopefully relieve them a little bit of what they are carrying around by just listening.

I guess perhaps it is not completely a surprise I have been seeking some kind of service work in my life. For one reason or another I have always been the type that has felt the weight of the world on my shoulders, sometimes in the form of worrying for others and sometimes in the form of just worrying about myself. Perhaps worry isn’t the correct word, but I know I’ve spent a lot of time in thought about a range of subjects that one can do very little about but think.

I have spent most of my life worrying plenty more than my fair share and I know that it is extremely useless. That is now something else I am trying to learn from on this trip: just how little control over life I have. Life is like wind, always carrying you along, but sometimes things knock you down a long the way. Some people bounce back and heal quickly. I don’t. I used to think I was “thin-skinned” but I sincerely doubt that now. I think a better adjective would be “slow-healing”. And I don’t know why, but at this point in my life I am tired of insisting there always be an answer. That’s just the way I am, the way some people are. It is not good to hold on to stuff, but for those of us who have a hard time letting go, we aren't alone at all. Attributes about people can change as is necessary over time, but ultimately, you are who you are. I’m unique, but for the very reasons I’m unique I also have a lot in common with others: I’m misunderstood sometimes, or lots of times. I have secrets. I have doubts. Things scare me. I like some people a lot and have a hard time liking others. Some things make me madder than hell. Some things really make me laugh. A lot of things I just don’t get.

I have less than a month left before I officially start my job as a volunteer here. I just got back from Field Based Training (in Ica) where we got our first taste of what work will be like. I very much enjoyed something practical and hands-on, but I also considered how daunting this is, like a mountain in front of me, and wondered if the payoff is worth the sacrifices. There is no way to know, but there never is. Some things just aren’t meant to be known right away, and some answers can’t be just given or discovered because they must be grown. You look at the challenge and just keep grinning while you go on forward with your life.

As promised, I want to give a special thanks to my friend Patrick S. and his father, whom, Patrick informed me last week, is following this and many other blogs. I am very thankful you are reading! :-) As always, feel free to leave any feedback!

Hope all is well,
Tristan